Im a freak

3.11.09
I am a super;big time completely totally a freak.
Only my twisted and wierd mind can find fault in the wierdest of things.
Only I can find emoness in the most absurd places possible.
Really only i can make a completely normal day into a depressing bore ,
I dont understand whats wrong with me.
I should be happy.Im making friends, im getting an award,i got a 16/20 in my bio weekly and im finally cathing up.
Then why the sad face.
Why do i still need 2 plaster a fake smile on my face so no will ask me whats wrong.(I really dont know whats wrong).
I need to make changes in my personalitity in my lifestyle, my "emoness".
Or do i really find comfort in this misery is that why i cant let go.This book the secret says we need to have a positive mind as we give out positive vibes,so we attract positive thoughts,why can my stupid brain no think happy thoughts.They have to be there somewhere.This is so annoying.

P.S. people really need to be thought some manners mainly on how a person is to be treated, i mean u cant just ignore or push away the person whose talking to you and start flirting with some loser in arabic.
Guys need to learn how to treat girls, and learn to edit thier jokes.
And respect another persons space.
I try to be mean and tough but it just gets screwed up because of my stupid consience.

2 comments:

BoogieMonsterMan ^____^ said...

You're not a freak. You've just been gotten down by life way too many times. Get up, brush your knees and charge forwards!

Remember-- NO ONE controls you life, only you do. Control your life before it controls you. You can be happy. It all lies within you. Just keep trying, don't give up!

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