The Day I Write About Emotions
9 years ago
Im thinking
4.6.09
Reading a bitter truths blog and the fact that i could barely understand a word in physics made me think.
Im at the end of my high school.
And what ive learnt in my 16 years is that well the real world sucks.
Were taking steps towards adulthood.
Making choices as to how we want our life to be.
Leaving high school.
It means leaving what is sort of a safe haven for us.
Leaving people who are an integral part of our life.
Ive moved on before when i transferred to tws.
But I guess that since Ive matured considerably in my time here.Made friends, shared experiences with them ,this time its not going to be easy to move on.
The friends ive made here have been there for me through thick and thin, an ever ready shoulder to cry on(not that i did).
Stood by me and helped me along, hard as i tried to push them away.
Like an A.N.G.E.L.
Can you just erase a person who has had an enormous impact on you life like that???
A person who has been your milestone?
Given you that last sherd of hope when you really needed it?
I hope im not that easy to forget either.(coz that would kindo of suck)
so now just a week left till im in high school.
Shouldnt i be happy??
Im at the end of my high school.
And what ive learnt in my 16 years is that well the real world sucks.
Were taking steps towards adulthood.
Making choices as to how we want our life to be.
Leaving high school.
It means leaving what is sort of a safe haven for us.
Leaving people who are an integral part of our life.
Ive moved on before when i transferred to tws.
But I guess that since Ive matured considerably in my time here.Made friends, shared experiences with them ,this time its not going to be easy to move on.
The friends ive made here have been there for me through thick and thin, an ever ready shoulder to cry on(not that i did).
Stood by me and helped me along, hard as i tried to push them away.
Like an A.N.G.E.L.
Can you just erase a person who has had an enormous impact on you life like that???
A person who has been your milestone?
Given you that last sherd of hope when you really needed it?
I hope im not that easy to forget either.(coz that would kindo of suck)
so now just a week left till im in high school.
Shouldnt i be happy??
3.6.09
This really sucks.
I mean i cannot get my self to study.
Im still angry.
And im pretty sure my tear glands have stopped functioning.
I just really want to scream.
And I hate physics.
After chem im sure this will suck too.
I.HATE.CIE.
OMG!!!!!!
I mean i cannot get my self to study.
Im still angry.
And im pretty sure my tear glands have stopped functioning.
I just really want to scream.
And I hate physics.
After chem im sure this will suck too.
I.HATE.CIE.
OMG!!!!!!
Pissed
2.6.09
I FREAKING HATE EVERY FREAKING PERSON IN THIS WORLD
Why is it that some people think theyre cleopetra or something, that they have a right to stomp theyre fucking feet all over other peoples feelings.
Why is it that people just assume the fact that oter people dont have any feeling just because they dont like to say it.
Why is people are such manupaliting bitches that they think its fine to use other people just because they actually use theyre brains for other purposes than omg hes soo cute.
Why is it that some people think theyre cleopetra or something, that they have a right to stomp theyre fucking feet all over other peoples feelings.
Why is it that people just assume the fact that oter people dont have any feeling just because they dont like to say it.
Why is people are such manupaliting bitches that they think its fine to use other people just because they actually use theyre brains for other purposes than omg hes soo cute.
Today
1.6.09
I absoloutely hate the people who made my chemistry paper.
First of all i already had a headace,i had my periods, i was pretty much gonna kill the next person who spoke to me.How the hell am i supposed to concentrate.
I was actually doing fine till i realized omg i dont have a calculator.
That was when i started hyper ventelating. Perspiring. I dont know how but i managed to ask the teacher for a calculator. And she actually gave one to me.Sh took it from this other girl.
By that time i was all omg i dont like this calculator; What if it gives me a wrong answer.
Then i saw the last past.At that very moment i knew i was doomed.
I could feel the tears begining to prick my eyes.
I had to take 5 min to just calm my self.
Then I saw the Clock.
I dont have the best timeing abilities so i had to ask the teacher to tell me the time.
I was right there were only 20 minutes left and half my paper was blank.(The teacher gave me a very creepy look)
Anyways like ms mariama said let bygones be bygones, Fuck this and concentrate on the next paper.(she did not use fuck)
But im telling you if the next paper has a completely different pattern as well.
Im gonnna.....
First of all i already had a headace,i had my periods, i was pretty much gonna kill the next person who spoke to me.How the hell am i supposed to concentrate.
I was actually doing fine till i realized omg i dont have a calculator.
That was when i started hyper ventelating. Perspiring. I dont know how but i managed to ask the teacher for a calculator. And she actually gave one to me.Sh took it from this other girl.
By that time i was all omg i dont like this calculator; What if it gives me a wrong answer.
Then i saw the last past.At that very moment i knew i was doomed.
I could feel the tears begining to prick my eyes.
I had to take 5 min to just calm my self.
Then I saw the Clock.
I dont have the best timeing abilities so i had to ask the teacher to tell me the time.
I was right there were only 20 minutes left and half my paper was blank.(The teacher gave me a very creepy look)
Anyways like ms mariama said let bygones be bygones, Fuck this and concentrate on the next paper.(she did not use fuck)
But im telling you if the next paper has a completely different pattern as well.
Im gonnna.....
Random facts I would rather no one knew about me
1.I had a crush on tarzan.Yes the disney tarzan.I know what you thinking,I my self cannot fathom the reason behind this.
2.I like watching the disney channel, yes even barbie.
3.When i get nervous for some reason my face starts itching.
4.I am afraid of the dark.I sleep with a torch under my pillow.
5.I actually like smelling my hands before an exam for some reason that makes me feel better.
6.i have violent dreams. I say I do not dream but the truth is I dream about terminator salvation esque scene.
7.I did not understand Edward cullen craze till well i duuno somehow i was just in love with him.
8.When i listen to a song i like imagining the video.
9.I like having flour of my face.
10.Recently i have been infatuated with the powerpuff girls.Last night i did not sleep because i kept replaying some creepy powerpuff girls episode in my head.
11.When a cute guy talks to me my brain hurts,probably coz im thinking of something clever to say.Which comes out totally wrong.
12.I thought barbie was the queen of the worlds name.
13.I thought Quaid azam was my grandfather, even though they both look really different.
14.I say I hate kids but sometimes i dont, well most times i dont.
15.I punthure my teddy bears stomach when im pissed.
2.I like watching the disney channel, yes even barbie.
3.When i get nervous for some reason my face starts itching.
4.I am afraid of the dark.I sleep with a torch under my pillow.
5.I actually like smelling my hands before an exam for some reason that makes me feel better.
6.i have violent dreams. I say I do not dream but the truth is I dream about terminator salvation esque scene.
7.I did not understand Edward cullen craze till well i duuno somehow i was just in love with him.
8.When i listen to a song i like imagining the video.
9.I like having flour of my face.
10.Recently i have been infatuated with the powerpuff girls.Last night i did not sleep because i kept replaying some creepy powerpuff girls episode in my head.
11.When a cute guy talks to me my brain hurts,probably coz im thinking of something clever to say.Which comes out totally wrong.
12.I thought barbie was the queen of the worlds name.
13.I thought Quaid azam was my grandfather, even though they both look really different.
14.I say I hate kids but sometimes i dont, well most times i dont.
15.I punthure my teddy bears stomach when im pissed.
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