......I know i havent blogged in a while but i have absolutely nothing to blogg.Well that is completley untrue i have a lot to say about a lot but..i dunno im all jumbled up...probably because i spent the last three hours sitting in the front of the computer trying to figure out what in the hell is exactly wrong wid the computer!!
and before that i was attempting to do maths.and right about now i want to muder the man who invented maths in the most horrendous way i can!!!

Hard times

There are times in every red blooded RBC containing human bieng when you are overwhelmed with this sudden urge to just make it all end,whe you lose all hope,when you feel like nothing can ever change,nothig can make it any better,it can get only get worse from this point forward,when you urge to just be able to slow it down,destroy diminish this pain thats surging though you in firey,killing every shred of hope inside you,without even the tiniest hint of mercy, of regret, of sorrow,leaving you with so much sweltring pain that you loophole,your only way to get out,to be free,is to give it all up,just surrender.
At times like these its worth remembering what life has to offer,not the many brutalies you have sufferd at its hand.Just take a deep breath and smile.Its got to end somewhere somehow.
I know this is very emo and depressing but its true for everone

FlAiR fUsIoN

The sixth form students had the exicting and brilliantly organized "event" entitled the flair fusion...oh wait did i just use the words exicting and well organized in the same sentence as flair fusion...oops what i meant was some what bland and dissaryed.This is the part where A.S.would remark sarcastic and cynical rabi!!
What does that even mean.well im not getting into details of how badly planned and lacking in creativity the event was.NO i think i am.Well the fashion show was i think the only attraction it had to offer.The other dances and performances i can comment on really because i didnt get to see them.But really we have to give the sixth form a bit of credit seeing as they did organize and think up the entire event all on thier own..oh wait no wasnt it the 2005th year of 12th graders,and did it not have the same event and order as last year and the year before(yes yes i know cynical and sarcastic).

Anyway im not going to get into all the details of that mainly because there are much better thing to discuss.
me and S.A. decided to go to sahara to get something to eat as well we were famished.
and i couldnt walk in my 3 inch stilletos so i walked barefoot for a while and then because my feet had splinters and were aching saba let me borrow hers...which broke after i took two steps!!i kept apologising to her all the way and she making me feel guilty.
some where along the way i was pretty sure we were lost and i was gonna hit her on head with my oversized canadizn university bag if sahara center had not emerged as the sudden sunshine, and glass bits on the road.
I think sahara kept moving 2 steps backward as i moved two steps forward just to tease me.Anyway when we got ther i had to walk barefoot as saba wouldnt let me wear my shoes.and i didnt really because no one was really looking.
Then we rushed to the food courts(barefeet)after we finished washing our feet,and like hungry bears.


note:i was just critizing and being cynical and sarcastic about my school,i really enjoyed the flair fusion when my feet wernt really aching and A>S> and R>K> and G>L>N> were dr.
Espeially r>K and my dancing and etc....
and i really learned a valuable lesson never wear stilletoes to a party where u are pretty sure u will have to do a lot of walking!

The tryth about love

love

Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection. The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction.This diversity of meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.
Recent studies in neuroscience have indicated that as people fall in love, the brain consistently releases a certain set of chemicals, including pheromones, dopamine, norepinephrine, and serotonin, which act in a manner similar to amphetamines, stimulating the brain's pleasure center and leading to side effects such as increased heart rate, loss of appetite and sleep, and an intense feeling of excitement. Research has indicated that this stage generally lasts from one and a half to three years.
Since the lust and attraction stages are both considered temporary, a third stage is needed to account for long-term relationships. Attachment is the bonding that promotes relationships lasting for many years and even decades. Attachment is generally based on commitments such as marriage and children, or on mutual friendship based on things like shared interests. It has been linked to higher levels of the chemicals oxytocin and vasopressin to a greater degree than short-term relationships have


the chinese symbol for love

Twilight the movie

Starting of at that yummy note.I would like to publicly anounce tht fact that I JUST SAW TWILIGHT...
I was kind of dissapointed that marium couldnt make it.It would have really rocked if she was there,it was okay nevertheless,me and saba got all dolled up for edward!yeah talk about obsessed.Saba looked amazing as always,i finally got my wish of getting my hair curled.yaay!
We had fun playing i wannabe barbie..no sarcasm intended

we went to watch twilight after.The mall was filled with teens mostly girls lining up to watch twilight.which is pretty unusual for mega mall,its never this full and day of the week.
Edward wasnt in there in any of the main posters. all the posters had james,who even though is pretty hot wasnt why me and so many other girls had come to see.THe only poster with edward on it was on the ground where a couple of guys were trying to stamp on his nose,saying edward cullen sucks.
I loved the movie once after sevral pinces from saba (love you so much) "helped" me block out the movie so i wouldnt find every minute mistake in it.Edward cullen wasnt as chrming and perfect and amazing as i had expectd,but i guess that is as close as we will get to see edward cullen in reality.Bella was fine since i never really concentrated on her that much.They changed a lot of the books details,But that is to be expected since it was a two hour movie!
I actually saw this guy who would be a perfect edward cullen,with the perfect bronze hair and that perfect crooked smile(which i did not see in the movie btw),and perfect height and perfect dress sense,and he wasnt even eating anything.
Me and saba satalked him until the second from where he mesteriouslt but perfectly dissapeared.

I LOVE EDWARD CULLEN!!
AND I NEED TO FIND THIS GUY

Tears, scars and death... thats all life is to me

Today ladies and gentleman is the united Arab emirates 37Th national day wishing..37 year of toil and labour has led to this extravagant and lustrous city....
yayyyy..
My exams pretty much sucked we were supposed to go the 1st (which was yesterday)to collect our marks,I already know all my exams sucked I didn't bother to go,and right know I'm wishing i had,just to get this over with,now i have to wait until the 18Th.*SAD*
I still cant believe once again i gave up john Abraham for stupid physics chem and all the other exams.
I was really looking forward to going to watch twilight with all my friend but most of them cancelled i don't know if angel is coming so its just going to be and Saba again.I'm not saying it isn't fun but mega is small and i get stalked and tired of roaming around.Just hope angel is coming (no pressure).And I'm not whinhig to my friend I understand you all had some reasons just saying i wished yo had.
When will people understand that words can cut as sharply as any blade, and that those cuts leave scars upon our souls.This is something i want to ask the entire human population actually.
Did i already talk about my exams??yeah i did