dreary summer days

I think the creavite part of my brain has come a complete shutdown.
I havent been able to blog since my exams got over.its annoying.
For all you out there who think im wierd heres another one for you.Ive recently developed this new habit of laying down on my bed, and staring up at the glow in the dark stars ive stck on the cieling listening to mellow songs mainly;
Savage gardens-truly madly deeply
Yeng constantino-if we fall in love.
I'll be right here waiting for fou.
hero-enrique eglasis
invisble-taylor swift.
you found me & how to save a life-the fray
And moctly chasing cars
Tear drops on my guitar-taylor swift
And your not sorry- taylor swift.
No promises-shayne ward

Its not really an emo trait, au contariar if you ever try it, you'll be amazed at how soothing, caliming relaxing listening to these songs can be.
Im leaving for pakistan on the 4th of july...
Hope it rains there.
Or the goverment finally realizes there are a large no of sources of electricity.
And they do not need to punish the people of pakistan just because....

little moments

Well the reason i havent updated my blog in so long, is merely the fact that i seen to have run out of ideas.Im making up to you using this blog.
Little moments, the words say it all dont they;
How many times have you heard the saying its the little moments in life that makeit worth living.
If you really think about it, and i mean really, if you just shut of that voice in your head and think about it, it is true.
But isnt it also true its the big moments in live thaat make it worth living.
worth living whaht does that even mean.
Does it mean you wake up in the morning and dont have to think, oh god why me.
Does it mean you go through an entire day not thinking god i hate my life.
Does it mean you sit with that content smirk on your face,all your sorrows forgotten.
Doesnt it mean taht one day instead of complaining about what you dont have your actually thankful to god for all the blessing He has bestowed upon you.
If you use this definion of worth living and combine it all togather; does it not all add upto something. like happiness maybe, maybe you dont feel like an oputsider in this universe.
Dont worry about the fact that no one has even botherd to call you, in the time that has passed since the end of school.
Your so called friends havent even called you.
Dont get me wrong this is not a call for help.

Schools over

Its been one day and i duuno how many hours since schools been out.
But i just cannot get it into my head that i will never have to walk down those halls towards 11g5, and secretly think holy shit where the hell a i.
Never look at certian faces and overcome with this urge to punch someone.
Never sit all through zero period and chat with my friends.
I dont know how many of my friends i will get to see in the near future.
Dont know if i will get to see any of them at all.
But yesterday as i sat there blair witch project(which btw i have become obsessed with), it came to me;i wont forget my friends; they made what was assured to be hell on earth, or a less drastic expirence;better.
I dont know what i want to do with my life, true, but one thing i know for sure is i dont want to be a "homemaker".
I must create a system, or be enslaved by another man's.

No promises by shayne ward

I just love listening to this song over and over again.
And after about 1 hour of trying to find a music player..i give up..
Im just posting the lyrics

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

Here tonight

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t want to run away, I want to stay forever, thru Time and Time..
No promises

I don’t wanna run away, I don’t wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love

No promises

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight.

I just realized the fact that i have an exam tommorrow

I AM IN LOVE WITH HIM.
I know i should probably be studying right about now but i just cannot tear myself away from watching the video of gives you hell again and again!!!

Sleepless

Why oh why must you taunt me so....
Last night i lay awake till 6 staring up at the ceiling when three things came to my mind.
Uno;I must figure out how to add videos to my blog.
Second;In my last post when i said life sucks;Dont get me wrong im not one of emo people,I should rephrase, What I mean to say was life has its ups and downs, i guess you could even say its the bad moments that make the good ones sweeter.
Its more or less like a chess game, it can go on as long as people want to keep playing it, or till one becomes hopeless and surrenders.
You win some you lose some.
This is how I would describe my 16 years of life.
I mean i would im good academically, im polite and respetful and i have "universal values", I have friends who have on numerous occasions tried to crack my bubble, with no luck nonetheless.
I would say my parents are pretty proud of me.
But something is missing.
Its like that song desperate by david arculeta you want somebody, just anybody to touch your soul tonight.
I havent achived much.
Im not a social worker.
I not all cheerful.
I still dont know half my classmates full names.
Im not all spiritual.
So what have I done with my sixeen years of life?
In decmber im going to be 17.
I hope before that time i can atleast be so confident that i have made a difference in someones life.
Been the reason someone wakes up every morning with a smile on thier face.
Contributed to change.
After all like gandhi said be the change you want to see in others.
So im quitting gossiping.
Im quitting being vindictive and vengeful.
And I might even hug my ex-loathees on the 12th.Might.
Oh before i forget the third thing.
Im in love with this song kiss me by six pence none the richer.I wanna upload it on my blog.